Today I found out who the 13th Doctor on Doctor Who will be. (It's someone called Jodie Whittaker, if any of you wanted to know.) And then it occurred to me how much I don't care. Two years ago, I would've been excited by the prospect of a new Doctor. I'd have had something to say about it being a woman this time, but I'm not sure what I would've said.
But year after year since 2005, I've had enough of Doctor Who. A friend showed me the first episode of the latest series since the reboot, and all I could think after watching it was it's time to stop. Maybe the BBC should take it off the air for a few decades again. They won't, but if they did I'd probably at least give the pilot episode a chance.
And when I realized how much I don't care about Doctor Who anymore, I felt strangely liberated. It's actually nice to have one less thing to care about. I want less things to care about, and have slowly stopped caring about Tumblr, disagreements between internet personalities, and the problems of strangers. I know someone who talks a lot about how we should remember to be nice to minorities and disabled people, and while it's true that we should be nice to people, I've found it extremely exhausting to care about what we shouldn't say and do because some might think it's offensive. And if anyone isn't cool with that, I'll retort, "I don't care."
I've got my own things to care about now. I have an array of hobbies (so many that it becomes stressful at times. I've dug myself into a hole with my hobbies), tests to pass, places to go and friends and family whom I need to spend time with. Not caring about Doctor Who anymore is what I need.
Ever since I was 14 I've kept a list on my phone of anime I need to watch. But when I get my new phone next week, that list will be deleted forever, because I want to be feel free. I'll watch what anime I want, when I want. Screw the list. I don't care about it anymore.